I'm back from Uganda. I'll write more on Uganda soon I'm still trying to put into words all that happened. While I was gone I was doing my devotions and I read a verse that really stood out to me.          

              Psalms 119:19 "I am a stranger on earth; do not hide your commands from me." 

The part that really stood out to me is the part that says "I am a stranger on earth." I've been praying in my daily prayers this verse because as a Christian I am not of this earth. This earth is temporary..... I don't want to treat it like a home because when your home you get comfortable. As a Christian I don't want to be comfortable! I love the quote that says " life begins at the end of your comfort zone." My goal in life is not to be comfortable but to follow what God wants me to do with my life which brings me to the next part of the verse. The next part says "do not hide your commands from me." I've been praying a lot lately about God leading me where he wants me to go next wreather that be back to Uganda or to China or Mexico or India. If you think about it just pray that God will just show me where to go next! I know God will provide the money and show me where to go in his own perfect timing and I'm learning to trust in him more and more each and every day! 

Side note: I'm planning to write about Uganda soon but here's a picture from my trip! 

Praying for heart break

        I'm praying for my heart to be broken. This may seem weird to pray but its not. I'm praying when I go back to Uganda that my heart will be broken. I'm praying I will love more than ever! I'm expecting heart break on this trip because last time my heart crumbled into a million pieces. Because I'm expecting heart break I don't want to guard my heart I want to break I want to experience the heart ache and culture shock. I want my heart to be vulnerable to breaking. I want to love with every part of my being. When your heart break because you have loved so much it's a life changing feeling! I don't want to get home and say I didn't love those kids and people with every part of my heart! After being so attached to a child and having to leave him in an orphanage not knowing what was going to happen....... it changes you. It broke me..... it changed me........ it showed me how i live a sheltered life. I still wonder what happened to that little boy. I pray each day he's safe and has a loving family. Maybe one day I'll find out what happened to that little boy that stole my heart and changed my life forever but thats the thing i don't know! If it comes to your mind please pray for me as I am returning to Uganda and especially pray for my heart to break!

fully trusting in God

John 9:2-3

² His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”

³ “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.

   I was reading my bible this evening and these verses really stood out to me. The reason is that a lot of times people tend to think something is wrong with them because God is upset with something they did. In reality sometimes its just God using there life to bring others to him or to bring them closer to him. In most situations people won't see the good that came out of it until afterwards. When things happen to me I would like to start trying to trust more in God and realize this is in his hands not mine. I want to fully rely on God in every aspect in my life and thats when your faith really goes into action when you fully trust in God. I admit a lot of times I want to be in control and know WHY something is happening. This year I'm trying to challenge my self to rely more on God and less on myself and to just let go and let God take over. This can seem so scary....... but in reality we should be scared not to let God be fully in control of our lives because his plans for our lives our so much better than we can ever imagine. I hope to stop asking why something happened and instead ask how can I use my situation to honor God. Just step back and let God catch you.

Do something

Orphans, poverty, starvation................................. These are things that no one wants to talk about. Their are 153 million children that don't have parents. at least 80% of humanity lives on less than $10 a day. over 3 billion people live on less than $2.50. Each year 2.6 million children die because of starvation. These things are preventable so why are they still happening? As Christians we need to step up and do something!!!!! Lots of people just say why can't someone else do it. In reality though if every one says this no one will do anything. God tells in the bible it is our job as Christians to help the poor, starving, and orphaned. Did you know that if only 7% of Christians would adopt the orphan crisis would be ended? Did you know every 18 seconds another child becomes an orphan? These statistics didn't affect me until I met the faces behind the statistics. Once you know their stories and names their is no going back. once you see people in true poverty begging in the middle of the street. Once you see children and people starving their is no going back. once you see these things the numbers turn into faces. Once you see faces instead of numbers ignoring the situation is impossible. I can't ignore the statistics any more. I want to make a difference. Even if I can only change the life of one person. I want to do something about these things.