I want to live for Christ. God has given me so much grace and mercy which I'm so undeserving of! I'm so grateful I get to serve such a loving all powerful God! I want to serve God in all I do because he has given me more than I could I ever earn and way more than I deserve! I want to be a missionary so that I can show others how great God is and show them his love, his mercy, his grace, his forgiveness, but mainly his salvation! 

A goal

I have a goal.... For this next year..... And the next..... And the next...... And for the rest of my life.....

My goal is to fully poor myself into serving others instead of myself. My goal is to live for Christ fully. My goal is to be still and listen to God and give him a chance to talk to me instead of me just talking to him. My goal is to be a light in this world. I want Christ to shine through me. When I get to heaven I want God to say "well done good and faithful servant." Their is a key word in that SERVANT. I want to live my life SERVING others. So my prayer right now is for God to continue showing himself to me, for me to grow closer to God, for me to have more opportunities to serve others, and to let Christ shine through me in every single situation! 

I'm back from Uganda. I'll write more on Uganda soon I'm still trying to put into words all that happened. While I was gone I was doing my devotions and I read a verse that really stood out to me.          

              Psalms 119:19 "I am a stranger on earth; do not hide your commands from me." 

The part that really stood out to me is the part that says "I am a stranger on earth." I've been praying in my daily prayers this verse because as a Christian I am not of this earth. This earth is temporary..... I don't want to treat it like a home because when your home you get comfortable. As a Christian I don't want to be comfortable! I love the quote that says " life begins at the end of your comfort zone." My goal in life is not to be comfortable but to follow what God wants me to do with my life which brings me to the next part of the verse. The next part says "do not hide your commands from me." I've been praying a lot lately about God leading me where he wants me to go next wreather that be back to Uganda or to China or Mexico or India. If you think about it just pray that God will just show me where to go next! I know God will provide the money and show me where to go in his own perfect timing and I'm learning to trust in him more and more each and every day! 

Side note: I'm planning to write about Uganda soon but here's a picture from my trip! 

Praying for heart break

        I'm praying for my heart to be broken. This may seem weird to pray but its not. I'm praying when I go back to Uganda that my heart will be broken. I'm praying I will love more than ever! I'm expecting heart break on this trip because last time my heart crumbled into a million pieces. Because I'm expecting heart break I don't want to guard my heart I want to break I want to experience the heart ache and culture shock. I want my heart to be vulnerable to breaking. I want to love with every part of my being. When your heart break because you have loved so much it's a life changing feeling! I don't want to get home and say I didn't love those kids and people with every part of my heart! After being so attached to a child and having to leave him in an orphanage not knowing what was going to happen....... it changes you. It broke me..... it changed me........ it showed me how i live a sheltered life. I still wonder what happened to that little boy. I pray each day he's safe and has a loving family. Maybe one day I'll find out what happened to that little boy that stole my heart and changed my life forever but thats the thing i don't know! If it comes to your mind please pray for me as I am returning to Uganda and especially pray for my heart to break!